It’s been over a month since I have had wings or written about them. Why is it that life can get in the way of the things we love? I loathe the feeling of being spread thin and only meeting obligations. The month of May should have just been called MAYhem… Okay, I got my bad joke out of the way.
It’s odd how June began and my focus has shifted back to things I love: writing, performing, focusing on relationships, and dedication to finding new wings. I am back to my optimistic, hopeful self.
May challenged me in ways I couldn’t imagine: a constant stream of bridal showers, my sister’s college graduation, a bachelorette trip, shows, and family in town.
So much of it went well, so much of it I enjoyed but there were some moments that I had to reflect on and decide if I wanted to keep investing my time, money, energy, and heart into certain people and my experiences with them.
So many times you hold on to an idea of someone for so long, hoping that you both are the person that you both once were. It’s like finding a restaurant with tasty wings and going back over and over then one day it changes ownership and they don’t make their wings the same. The wings go from sauce made with love to sauce from a jar.
Then you start thinking, did these wings always suck but I chose to find the good? Was I dumb to believe these wings would be consistent? I mean, chefs make mistakes or they may have changed an ingredient because it was cost effective.
Maybe once you get wings in your life that knock your sock off, you start to see other wings as sub-par. Then I get to thinking that I am over analyzing these wings…maybe I need to accept these wings as they are but not go out of my way for them. I don’t know, but I have been sad about it, and disappointed.
Wings and relationships are important to me. (Don’t worry, different levels of importance. I do not pick wings over people unless it comes to what’s on my plate.) I hate thinking I have not focused enough on my relationships or I have put energy into ones that are not reciprocating. I hate thinking that I am eating wings that cost too much when there are ones that are delicious and a value.
I have to keep my June intentions in focus: positive relationships, comedy, and wings. That’s how it should be.
Annie Lockwood 